Continuing from this post, takling about how it all began.
Reflecting later on these "servant game" sessions, I was struck by the emotional components more than by the kinky and sexual games. While I was my wife's slave I felt completely at peace and genuinely happy to serve her and to cater to all her whims.
I also noticed that most of the things which were the cause of arguments and marital discord did not seem to matter to me as much; I was starting to learn the skill of putting her needs and preferences automatically above my own. This realization was thrilling in and of itself.
At around this time, with the thrill of having tasted submission to my wife fresh in my memory and still resonating in my emotions, I stayed up late at nights and read FemDom sites like Elise Sutton's Female Superiority site and Diana Vesta's Guide to Female Domination. The more I read, the more eager I became to serve and obey my wife. Some of the sites which held my attention, such as the CFNM ("clothed female naked male") web sites were just pure porn, but even the porn sites pointed to a real desire that had been dormant in me.
My wife's birthday was coming up, and I was trying to come up with ideas. The last few birthdays I had bought her pieces of furniture, jewlery, books or CDs, etc. I struck upon an interesting idea, partially prompted by Elise Sutton's advice on how to introduce your wife or girlfriend to FemDom.
I found a birthday card that had a picture of a knight kneeling in front of his Queen, and inside I wrote:
"My beautiful Lady, Queen of my heart. I have gotten you some gifts as usual, but this year, I _also_ give you the gift of myself for the entirety of your birthday month (since a one day celebration is not nearly enough!)
I am completely yours, and anything that you desire will be my privilege to do for you."
My wife was amused and more than a bit skeptical. She figured that this was another one of the many things that would eventually fizzle away. I just smiled, thinking that her skepticism was well deserved since for many years I had been the stereotypical husband: busy, unavailable, unthinking, unappreciative, sometimes downright self centered.
The next morning, I got up early and did all the household chores: laundry, cleaning, vacuuming, taking care of the kitty litter, grocery shopping, all the while feeling a humming excitement at serving my wife.
During the next few weeks, I served my wife breakfast in bed, brought her snacks whenever she asked, fetched her drinks, massaged her, gave her footrubs, all the while reining in my male ego. It was torturous from time to time, massaging my wife's back, sexually lusting for her, but deliberately focusing only on her pleasure.
Towards the end of her birthday month, we had a conversation, where I confessed to her that serving her made me genuinely happy and that I realized that most of all, what I want, as a man, is to please my woman. I told her that I realized that her judgement in all things was just as good if not better than mine and that there was no reason why she should not be in control.
At some point in this conversation, I asked her: "Do you enjoy being the boss?"
She smiled and said "Yes, of course, my boy. You spoil me," and she touched my cheek lovingly. That was the end of that. I blushed and knelt at her feet, and she stroked my cheek and told me "What a good and eager boy you are! Yes, I am happy with this arrangement."
It has now been about eight or so months. My trial period has kept getting extended until it has become permanent. My Mistress/wife has become more and more comfortable in her role as the head of the household, and is now in complete control of our lives. She has made a lot of good changes (I will probably write about that in later posts) and has made it impossible for me to go through a day without being constantly reminded that she owns me and she is the boss.
I adore her. When I'm not with her, I miss her. When I am with her, I am in a heightened state of trying to please her. Sometimes I am deliciously miserable (which paradoxically makes me happy) and at other times, I am simply at peace.
On a daily level: I have kept up with all the housework, grocery shopping, running errands, kid-taxi, while Mistress Laura has been attending to other things. My efforts are, for the most part, self propelled (without much reminders from Mistress) and self sustaining.
I would love to hear thoughts and comments on any of this.
4 comments:
What an inspirational idea, your giving yourself as a gift to your Wife. I'd love to hear about the changes she made upon becoming the pronounced Head of Household in your marriage.
For me it happened more or less the same way: we started once with the servant game, which went on for the whole day, and we both found it extremely arousing. Then, gradually, we made it a constant lfa relationship. The fact that I can be sexually satisfied simply by serving her is a wonderful discovery for me and especially for her, who is now completely at ease with being pampered and served as much as she feels like.
Georg
Hi HH,
I'll write more about this in a future post, but she practically touched every aspect of my life:
1) She pronounced almost immediately that I would not ever cum without her permission: that my cock was her property and that I would no longer masturbate unless ordered by her.
2) She told me to turn over control of all the finances; I am still to pay the bills, but she will monitor everything (and has access to everything online). Any late fees I incur by not keeping on top of everything will be dealy with severely.
3) She changed the physical layout of our home to reflect more of her wishes. She expanded her office space, got a new mattress/bed, redid several rooms and swapped closets with me (of course, I was the work-horse who did all of this, most often naked and under her supervision),
4) Whenever I have to go to the bathroom at home, I am to come and ask her permission; sometimes she will let me, only after I sing a little "pee pee" wong for her. When I have to go the bathroom at work or elsewhere, I have to go pee sitting down; she tells me that this is to remind me that I am the "wife" in the Marriage.
5) I do all the housework. She will often deliberately laze about the house while I am vaccuuming all the rooms (sometimes naked and in high heels).
6) Last but not least: I am to defer to her always, in private or in public. I can have my own opinions, and I am required to share them with her respectfully, but she will make the final decisions in all things.
Georg, thanks for the comment.
Isn't it interesting that chores that were once drudgery (like vacuuming, cooking, cleaning) become so erotic and sexually satisfying when done to please our Mistress/Wife?
If you add a bit of pain or humiliation, all the better...
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